Darker Skies and Pink Julys

a ball that is not that soft.

2009-03-11T15:33:00.000-07:00

softball is starting, it shall be interesting. i can tell that this season is going to require an extra lot of work and effort, but i'm sure that's a good thing.

also new trimester, i don't know if i like it or not yet. i have fewer friends in my classes and lots more homework. poo.

aaaand, i'm still trying to decide on a college but its a struggle and i'm running out of time. eep.

okay, idk when i'll be back on here. it could get pretty hectic.

hmm.

2009-02-11T18:01:00.000-08:00

It seems like i haven't posted one of these in a while. I've almost completely made up my mind that i want to go to central. i guess i'll humor my best friend and take a visit to MSU to look into the RCAH program. could be really cool. perhaps not. i guess we'll see.

I've been thinking about two things alot lately: the innocence from my past and parenting.

innocence. as i observe kids that i see around they're just always so cute and content. i wish that i could have just a piece of that childlike happiness. and i also miss doing stupid, random stuff with my friends all the time and really really enjoying it while not giving a single care about what people think about me. i've definitely matured a lot in these last few years of high school but i also feel like i've gotten kind of boring goal: be more fun.

Parenting. its weird, but lately i've been relating everything to my kids. like i already have them or know what i want to do with them or something. but at the same time its like i don't even want to have kids because i don't want to ruin them. but at the same time i think i have a chance to be a really good, compassionate, fun mom. perhaps. anyways i'm really very much to young to be thinking about the off spring that i wont be conceiving for another ten years give or take.

thats all for now.

crazy

2009-01-25T19:08:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that my "little sister" is turning sixteen this week! its so crazy. i don't want her to be the way i was at her age. i just can't believe it. its so weird. anyways. we had a fun birthday party for her. we went to art unlimited and painted some pottery, which i can't wait to get back from firing. then we went and saw bride wards, which was cute but sappy and predictable. then we ate dinner at cancun and watched some movies at home. it was a good night. i hope that my sister and i grow closer as we get older. i really would like to be more of a friend than a sister.

hanways. youth group this week was really moving. i had a realization that i can't make it through this life on my own. it just can't be done and that's why i need to make some changes in my life so that i can turn some things around. and keep things looking up. we'll see how i do. and i'll try to update soon.

allison :]

mixed feelings

2009-01-23T22:20:00.000-08:00

eh, i don't know where we're moving yet. i don't know whats happening with our family. i don't really know much of anything. i know that my dad told me i have to decide where i'm going to college so that they can decide what kind of apartment/house we're going to rent. its hardly fair pressure and its building and building. but i try not to think of it.

i'm worried for myself. when i'm under pressure i give into the pressure. and i really really really really can't risk getting caught doing anything wrong or else i will never leave the house again and it will just be the end of my life as i know it. so that's basically not even an option for me. but then again it is. like i really could get into some deep shit.

anyways. on a lighter note.
i had a fun sledding date with a cute boy :] we went sledding at a local park and then he bought me dinner. i offered to take him to a movie. insuring a second date. yayyy. we'll see where this goes.

This is SERIOUS

2009-01-09T19:15:00.000-08:00

Well, i'll go ahead and start with the good news, sinc ei don't want to ruin the whole post by smothering you in bad news. Joe's Gizzard City was super fun. We tried the gizzards and i think to everyone's surprise liked them! We also got the fried dessert platter which happened to be delicious. We had fried cookie dough, fried oreos, fried nutter butters, fried doughnuts, fried applepuffs, and fried cheesecake. i felt like i wasn't going to eat for days! It was a really tacky restaurant but totally worth going for.

The bad news. And I mean BAD. My parents just told me and my sister tonight that our house has been forclose since october and we're going to have to move very soon. and by very soon i mean with in the next couple months! i couldn't believe it at first. i mean this is my home. I don't like it as much as my old house. but i've adjusted. I really don't know how i'm going to adapt to living in some crusty little old town house or apartment. this is going to be a drastic change for me. and frankly. i'm scared.

JOE'S GIZZARD CITY... and such

2009-01-01T19:52:00.000-08:00

Well, happy new year. it's not 2009 a big year for a lot of people like me. it's the year we move on from high school and leave our comfort zones behind in the dust. a year of change. My plan is to eat healthier lose 10 lbs for spring break and cut back alot on junk. plus work out some more. so far i fail because i'm still gorging myself at the holiday parties. oh well. i don't mind so much. and i don't plan on stopping any time soon because do you know what tomorrow is? its january 2, 2009! which means it's time for the ultimate lunch date that i've been awaiting for two weeks. two good friends, jennifer thomas, dylan cahoon and i are going to go to joe's gizzard city in pottervile. it's kind of a drive but its so worth it. it's a pretty unique place and we're super pumped to go. fried delicatcies galore. bring on the poundage! we were so excited that we wrote songs and sang them to jennifer in messages on her phone... here are a few examples...

To the tune of "We Go Together" from grease
joe's gizzard city like shoe bop shoe wadda wadda yippity boom de boom
january second like chang chang changity chang shoe bop
we're gonna eat some gizzards wahhooooo yeah!

To the tune of "I Can Show You the World" from alladin
i can feed you some gizzards
shove them right in your faaace hole
sure you'll gag at first then you'll swallow, and then eat some more.
a whole new world [don't you dare close your mouth]
a dingy place of guts and grime
no one to tell us no
or when to go
i'll eat those gizzards all day long with youuuu
a whole new worlddd [don't you dare close your mouth]
joe's gizzard cityyyyyyyyyyy.

To the tune of "Milkshake" by whoever
joe's gizzard city brings all teh boys to the yard
cus his gizzards are better than yours
damn right they're better than yours
you can eat them
but it extra charge
la la la la laaaaaa my gizzards.

QUALITY :]

i'll make sure to tell you how it goes.

TGGG and what not.

2008-12-30T19:51:00.000-08:00

i'm so super excited because i just did my first guest post on the two girls go green blog! its a couple of sweet chicks blogging about their efforts to "go green". really a worth while read. twogirlsgogreen.blogspot.com

alsooo, i got an interesting confession from my dad today. he actually told me that he doesn't approve of me going to central because its a party school. which semi-infuriated me/ made me want to party just to spite him [bad idea]. anyways. i love central, and will probably go there depending on if grand valley rocks my socks off in a couple weeks.

one thing grand valley has that central doesn't is the cutest boy ever, to whom i will someday be married and have two gorgeous and athletic children... in my dream. boys are a dumb reason to choose a college anyways. oh did i mention he has a girl friend and i stand no chance anyways. oh welllllllllllllllllllll.

now i'll tell everyone a little something about TRUE LOVE. it can be found along with any of the completely bizarre yet original ice cream sundaes my daddy likes to make! :] some time try vanilla ice cream with peanut butter, chocolate syrup, maple syrup and grahmcrackers. you wont be disappointed!

that's all for now.
-Allison ♥

vacation, decisions, dalmac etc.

2008-12-29T19:37:00.000-08:00

Yay, who doesn't love a few days away from home? My family and i took a few days away from home at a small cottage in lewiston. Unfortunately it rained some, so we couldn't go snowmobiling :/ bummer. But we were able to make a trip to boyne mountain where i had the privledge of teaching some family friends how to ski for the very first time. I also skiied my very first black diamond hill... somewhat against my own will. I love skiing and really need to make the effort to get up more often.

update on my decisions!

I decided, or rather my father decided, that i need to stay home and work this summer instead of pursuing a missions internship in costa rica. while the opportunity would be wonderful he was right in the sense that i really do need to save up some money before i go off to college. this also means spending more time with my friends this summer, and attending my final year at lake louise as a camper ( i will of course be returning as a counselor some day!).

Also, since i'll have all this extra free time this summer, i'm going to train for the Dalmac with my dad. For those of you that don't know the Dalmac is a 5 day long bike ride from lansing michigan to st. ignace over the mackinac bridge. Thats around 300 miles of pedaling! I'm sure it will be difficult, and i probably won't like the practicing, but i'm really looking forward to following the footsteps of my grandfather who used to do the dalmac every year. i'll be riding in his honor. My grandpa actually died while he was riding his bike. He went out painlessly doing what he loved and i can't wait for this bike ride in august!

That's all for now.
yours truely.

Oh, The Yultide.

2008-12-23T20:53:00.000-08:00

Well, it's officially Christmas eve. even though it is verrrrry early. But i can't help but be excited.
I love Christmas. and that's and under statement, i LOOOOOOOOVE Christmas. My family came up from texas and maryland yesterday. Everyone came into work and i waited on them and made $30 off their table... very niiiice :] Then we had the company Christmas party, which was good. free food and free stuff. i made out like a bandet with free clothes, free break food next time i work and a meijer gift card. solid!

Tomorrow i think we're going to a pottery place with my 5 and 8 year old cousins... they're so cute with their little faces and british accents. what?! british accents?! they live in maryland?! but yes. it's true. and they're incredible.

Wanna know something really sad? My mom thinks that she isn't good enough, or doesn't deserve to get good presents from my sister my dad and i. totally ridiculous because my mom definitely rocks, like wow. that's really sad. so we made sure to get her just about everything she asked for, hopefully she feels good enough this year. it really is a shame.

Well that's all i've got for now.
Merry Christmas to everyone!
...and don't forget what it's all about. jesus's birthday party!

Long Time - No See

2008-12-20T20:04:00.000-08:00

So, it's been soooo long since i've logged into my blogger account that i actually couldn't get in. Tough. So much has changed that i guess it's only best to start off with a clean slate. So here we go.

My newest obsessions and obstacles:

searching for the perfect college. what makes the ultimate college experience? is it where you go? the classes you take? the people you're with? the food you eat? the parties you attend? the various laws you break? or is it the attitude you bring with you? i just don't know. i've narrowed my search down to central michigan university, grand valley state university, and possibly michigan technological university. as for a major. well i change that a few times a week so there's no way to be sure. it seems like everyone knows where they're going and what they're doing while i'm stuck here in my hometown with no idea what to do.
fighting for my freedom! i'm currently thinking of the best way to get myself ungrounded. it's been nearly six months for one bad decision. seems harsh don't you think? do i go for the guilt trip where i make my parents feel bad for making me miss out on half of my senior year? or do i roll over and play dead, admit defeat and tell them how painfully successful their punishment is? january 6th marks 6 complete months of lonesome grounding. sitting on the side lines while i watch my friends go about their senior years together. january 6th is the day i have to get enough guts to go ape shit and demand liberation. we'll see how it goes and i'll be sure to follow up.
childhood relapse. i love everything about my childhood. so over this two week (friendless) christmas break i plan to revisit everything. i've gotten off to a good start by renting some of my childhood favorites. heavy weights with ben stiller and all of season two of lizzie mcguire. and a couple hours of mind numbing saturday morning cartoons. (they aren't what they used to be). next on my list is reading the entire clique series about life in the 7th grade and probably going sledding.

So this is where i'm at. i'm torn between my comfortable past, the present i'm trapped in, and the unknown future that lies ahead. i'm sure i'll find a way out of this.

the worlds out there waiting for you, dontcha know?