hmm.

It seems like i haven't posted one of these in a while. I've almost completely made up my mind that i want to go to central. i guess i'll humor my best friend and take a visit to MSU to look into the RCAH program. could be really cool. perhaps not. i guess we'll see.

I've been thinking about two things alot lately: the innocence from my past and parenting.

innocence. as i observe kids that i see around they're just always so cute and content. i wish that i could have just a piece of that childlike happiness. and i also miss doing stupid, random stuff with my friends all the time and really really enjoying it while not giving a single care about what people think about me. i've definitely matured a lot in these last few years of high school but i also feel like i've gotten kind of boring goal: be more fun.

Parenting. its weird, but lately i've been relating everything to my kids. like i already have them or know what i want to do with them or something. but at the same time its like i don't even want to have kids because i don't want to ruin them. but at the same time i think i have a chance to be a really good, compassionate, fun mom. perhaps. anyways i'm really very much to young to be thinking about the off spring that i wont be conceiving for another ten years give or take.

thats all for now.