a ball that is not that soft.

softball is starting, it shall be interesting. i can tell that this season is going to require an extra lot of work and effort, but i'm sure that's a good thing.

also new trimester, i don't know if i like it or not yet. i have fewer friends in my classes and lots more homework. poo.

aaaand, i'm still trying to decide on a college but its a struggle and i'm running out of time. eep.

okay, idk when i'll be back on here. it could get pretty hectic.

hmm.

It seems like i haven't posted one of these in a while. I've almost completely made up my mind that i want to go to central. i guess i'll humor my best friend and take a visit to MSU to look into the RCAH program. could be really cool. perhaps not. i guess we'll see.

I've been thinking about two things alot lately: the innocence from my past and parenting.

innocence. as i observe kids that i see around they're just always so cute and content. i wish that i could have just a piece of that childlike happiness. and i also miss doing stupid, random stuff with my friends all the time and really really enjoying it while not giving a single care about what people think about me. i've definitely matured a lot in these last few years of high school but i also feel like i've gotten kind of boring goal: be more fun.

Parenting. its weird, but lately i've been relating everything to my kids. like i already have them or know what i want to do with them or something. but at the same time its like i don't even want to have kids because i don't want to ruin them. but at the same time i think i have a chance to be a really good, compassionate, fun mom. perhaps. anyways i'm really very much to young to be thinking about the off spring that i wont be conceiving for another ten years give or take.

thats all for now.

crazy

I can't believe that my "little sister" is turning sixteen this week! its so crazy. i don't want her to be the way i was at her age. i just can't believe it. its so weird. anyways. we had a fun birthday party for her. we went to art unlimited and painted some pottery, which i can't wait to get back from firing. then we went and saw bride wards, which was cute but sappy and predictable. then we ate dinner at cancun and watched some movies at home. it was a good night. i hope that my sister and i grow closer as we get older. i really would like to be more of a friend than a sister.

hanways. youth group this week was really moving. i had a realization that i can't make it through this life on my own. it just can't be done and that's why i need to make some changes in my life so that i can turn some things around. and keep things looking up. we'll see how i do. and i'll try to update soon.

allison :]

mixed feelings

eh, i don't know where we're moving yet. i don't know whats happening with our family. i don't really know much of anything. i know that my dad told me i have to decide where i'm going to college so that they can decide what kind of apartment/house we're going to rent. its hardly fair pressure and its building and building. but i try not to think of it.

i'm worried for myself. when i'm under pressure i give into the pressure. and i really really really really can't risk getting caught doing anything wrong or else i will never leave the house again and it will just be the end of my life as i know it. so that's basically not even an option for me. but then again it is. like i really could get into some deep shit.

anyways. on a lighter note.
i had a fun sledding date with a cute boy :] we went sledding at a local park and then he bought me dinner. i offered to take him to a movie. insuring a second date. yayyy. we'll see where this goes.

This is SERIOUS

Well, i'll go ahead and start with the good news, sinc ei don't want to ruin the whole post by smothering you in bad news. Joe's Gizzard City was super fun. We tried the gizzards and i think to everyone's surprise liked them! We also got the fried dessert platter which happened to be delicious. We had fried cookie dough, fried oreos, fried nutter butters, fried doughnuts, fried applepuffs, and fried cheesecake. i felt like i wasn't going to eat for days! It was a really tacky restaurant but totally worth going for.

The bad news. And I mean BAD. My parents just told me and my sister tonight that our house has been forclose since october and we're going to have to move very soon. and by very soon i mean with in the next couple months! i couldn't believe it at first. i mean this is my home. I don't like it as much as my old house. but i've adjusted. I really don't know how i'm going to adapt to living in some crusty little old town house or apartment. this is going to be a drastic change for me. and frankly. i'm scared.

JOE'S GIZZARD CITY... and such

Well, happy new year. it's not 2009 a big year for a lot of people like me. it's the year we move on from high school and leave our comfort zones behind in the dust. a year of change. My plan is to eat healthier lose 10 lbs for spring break and cut back alot on junk. plus work out some more. so far i fail because i'm still gorging myself at the holiday parties. oh well. i don't mind so much. and i don't plan on stopping any time soon because do you know what tomorrow is? its january 2, 2009! which means it's time for the ultimate lunch date that i've been awaiting for two weeks. two good friends, jennifer thomas, dylan cahoon and i are going to go to joe's gizzard city in pottervile. it's kind of a drive but its so worth it. it's a pretty unique place and we're super pumped to go. fried delicatcies galore. bring on the poundage! we were so excited that we wrote songs and sang them to jennifer in messages on her phone... here are a few examples...

To the tune of "We Go Together" from grease
joe's gizzard city like shoe bop shoe wadda wadda yippity boom de boom
january second like chang chang changity chang shoe bop
we're gonna eat some gizzards wahhooooo yeah!

To the tune of "I Can Show You the World" from alladin
i can feed you some gizzards
shove them right in your faaace hole
sure you'll gag at first then you'll swallow, and then eat some more.
a whole new world [don't you dare close your mouth]
a dingy place of guts and grime
no one to tell us no
or when to go
i'll eat those gizzards all day long with youuuu
a whole new worlddd [don't you dare close your mouth]
joe's gizzard cityyyyyyyyyyy.

To the tune of "Milkshake" by whoever
joe's gizzard city brings all teh boys to the yard
cus his gizzards are better than yours
damn right they're better than yours
you can eat them
but it extra charge
la la la la laaaaaa my gizzards.

QUALITY :]

i'll make sure to tell you how it goes.

TGGG and what not.

i'm so super excited because i just did my first guest post on the two girls go green blog! its a couple of sweet chicks blogging about their efforts to "go green". really a worth while read. twogirlsgogreen.blogspot.com

alsooo, i got an interesting confession from my dad today. he actually told me that he doesn't approve of me going to central because its a party school. which semi-infuriated me/ made me want to party just to spite him [bad idea]. anyways. i love central, and will probably go there depending on if grand valley rocks my socks off in a couple weeks.

one thing grand valley has that central doesn't is the cutest boy ever, to whom i will someday be married and have two gorgeous and athletic children... in my dream. boys are a dumb reason to choose a college anyways. oh did i mention he has a girl friend and i stand no chance anyways. oh welllllllllllllllllllll.

now i'll tell everyone a little something about TRUE LOVE. it can be found along with any of the completely bizarre yet original ice cream sundaes my daddy likes to make! :] some time try vanilla ice cream with peanut butter, chocolate syrup, maple syrup and grahmcrackers. you wont be disappointed!

that's all for now.
-Allison ♥